HEAVEN FORBIDS

Drapetomania

2011-09-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

I knew this was going to happen eventually.
I've even thought about it a few times, and i actually believed i was prepared to face it lest it happens.
But i guess i thought wrong.

When i saw that i still felt something.
A tinge of jealousy maybe, or just bitterness that you've moved on and i still haven't.

I really need to stop keeping you in my heart.
But no matter how much i try, i can't.

Ironically, i don't hate you. Not even one bit.
Instead, i still love you. Stupid, naive, little me.

Argh fuck i need my bestfriend.

Lonely Night

2011-09-14T00:44:00.010+08:00

I'm supposed to be typing out my 450 words essay on why i wanna go for OIPP next year,
but i found myself on your T reading every post there is.

I smiled and laughed whenever i see a post regarding me, be it a picture, a quote or a music video.
I could hear your adorable voice whenever i read a text post, and i would hear every music video and hear your sweet voice singing.
Every post brings me back to a particular memory that i wish i could relive again.

I want to get over you, i really do.
I thought i have.
But tonight just proves that i'm not, because while typing this post, i'm crying.

I miss you.

Fruitful week (last week)

2011-09-08T00:13:00.009+08:00

August 30th, Tuesday

Finally met up with the bitch!!! Chatted, window shopped, and more! :-)

31 August, Wednesday

Went to Haji Lane/Arab Street with M cuz she wanted to try shisha so i brought her there.
BluJaz Cafe only starts serving shisha at 7pm so we decided to try out Sufi's Corner cuz we saw manymanymany people shisha-ing thr.
Turns outttttt, it was so much better than BluJaz! The service, the ambience, the musicthe pipes, were great!
Loved the service thr. But hate that angmoh who was so demanding. Srsly.
Gtfo.

Grape i think, can't rmb!

As the taste/smell of the grape wasn't rlly strong (as we thought, but after that M could taste it)
so i ordered a double apple. But M didn't like the apple cuz it was too strong for her so we shisha-ed individually!

We also ordered fries, and drinks. The fries were gooooood.

Fail. HAHAHAHA. "user-problem"

After a few tries, and viola!

Pro. HAHAHA. :P

I like this. :-)

So we paid up and i brought M to explore Haji Lane (i typed lame wtf)!
She rlly loved it cuz everything was rlly unique and exclusive. :-)
I'm gonna save up to buy a polaroid asap.

1st September, Thursday

Went to the zoo to celebrate M's birthday! (belated)
She loved all the pressies we chose and i'm happy! :-)

Happy belated bday to you again! ♥♥♥

Group photo before we begin exploring the whole zoo!

I lovelovelove this photo.

I kinda like this photo cuz my legs don't look THAT fat. & it's candid!

J says i look pretty here. Say hi to pimple-less skin!

Horses are one of my favourite animals.
I rmbed when i was in Australia i used to sneak out of our cabins and intro the horses' barn to feed and touch the horses. :-) I miss Australia.

Love these shots!

After all the walking, we finally sat down for the animal show!
Some pictures before the show started! :D

The whole show was basically a seal performing manymany types of tricks!
I expected more animals but still the seal is rly cute and it made me smile and laugh! :-)

Anyw before the trip, we actually discussed who to bring what, and i brought egg mayo sandwiches, F bread, J & A old chang kee, K & M chips!
But we ate KFC before we entered the zoo so we were soooo damn full.
However we still forced ourselves to finish all the food we brought (except the chips) after the day at the zoo.

After stuffing food in.

Some random shots:

My earrings for the day! :-) I really love em.

My flipflops! :-)

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I FINALLY FED A GIRAFFE!!! AW THEY'RE SO ADORABLEEEEE!

YAY ME!!!

So that concludes last week!
Abrupt ending now.

G'night! x

Back from the dentist!

2011-09-06T13:12:00.000+08:00

Been 2 years since i’ve been to one!
But the dentist said my teeth are perfectly fine so it was just cleaning today.
She said i need to thank my parents for giving me such nice and straight teeth.
Hehehe :-)

However i hate the hook thingy which is used to reach under the gums to remove all the dirty stuff there. It hurt. :-(
But when i rinsed my mouth after, the stuff were BLACK. Yes BLACK!
It’s so gross but my mouth and teeth feel so clean now. :-D

/side track:
I’m gonna head to Ion later to exchange the wallet i got ytd, there are a few noticeable stratches.
Thank goodness i didn’t throw the receipt or tag away.

On a brighter note, gonna meet J later to take a walk down Haji Lane!
Followed by dinner at Queensway’s Ikea with F & M!

This is da life.

September's great

2011-09-04T18:05:00.010+08:00

It has been a fruitful week last week, and i have tons to blog about but i am really lazy right now so i will not. :-)

Last week in a nutshell:
Catchup with L, shisha with M, zoo with the girls, brother's birthday party, swimming, Billy Bombers with the mother, & my first ever perfume from Chanel.

Life's been good, and it will stay that way.

Meeting the bestfriend J (and maybe L too) tmr and we'll be heading to H&M to explore and catchup after so long!
Can't wait for RockBand on wed (maybe), Ikea with KY on thurs, and meetup with both bestfriends on fri!

Oh, not forgetting my dental appt on tuesday.
Haven't been to the dentist for 2 years. In serious need of cleaning!

It will be a great week. x

edited:

I forgot about this until i went thru my archives.
I'll start doing this soon! :-)

Ok bai. x

Sleepover, Strictly Pancakes, PartyWorld, Timbré

2011-08-29T03:45:00.004+08:00

Sleepover
on thursday with the girls @ M's place! However A and F couldn't make it.

First M & I made 3 fucking packets of water balloons. My fingers almost bruised and my nail polish chipped. :(

After finishing all the water balloons.

J and K joined us at the open area downstairs and the fun began!!!
Until J literally banged a light pole and repelled almost immediately.
Her head had a huge bruise and i ~~felt~~ still feel rlly bad cuz i chased her with 2 water balloons, which lead her to trying to siam me & kena the pole :\
Owell, but all was well!

Group photos after the wet fight, + Leo!

Headed up to bathe and had dinner.

Instant ramen with sausages & eggs by K & J!

Watched Arthur and then we decided to fulfil M's wish of drawing unibrows & mustaches on everyone and taking photos. Unglam max. I was the tiko.

Just a few from the bunch.

Then we headed downstairs & played something like Q&A, whereby one asks a question and all must answer discretely, and if you answer wrongly you'll need to eat a slice of lemon.
The lemon slices are really gross but i ate em like a boss.

- videos of us eating lemons till in the process of being uploaded -

Next, we played with pocky where we formed teams of 2, where we need to use our mouths to support the pocky stick while we eat it from the 2 ends and challenged who could have the shortest!
Of course all our lips touched, & M always fails to keep her composure!

Anyway that was when i spotted some creepy uncle filming us, and then came over to scold us cuz of all the noise we were making.
Lied we're from Ngee Ann, and had some quarrel over the video which he refused to delete but eventually relented.
We headed back to M's place, and found out he was still staring at us from the block opp, and even when we were in M's house, he continued to stare thru his kitchen window.
Wtf. Psycho man is psycho.

Had a rinse, watched Shutter Island (damn good movie) with M and slept.

Strictly Pancakes
F joined us, and we finally tried these yummy pancakes together!
Though the pancakes were awesome shitballs, the service staff really suck. Owell.

My strawbies and co. (3 pancakes, a scoop of vanilla ice cream, blueberries & strawberries)
FUCKING YUM.

Done!

Paid & left for The Cathay!

Wanted to have a round of Rockband @ St. Games but all the rooms were full.
So we left, and that was when i had a super fail moment.

Me: Eh jump over this ledge la why wanna walk one big round?!
The rest: ... Okay. * jump*
Me: *tries to jump* *legs too short* *piak on left knee*

Now i have this huge bruise and many abrasions on my left knee. Smart ass.

So K left, and we went to vivo for partyworld!

Went to F21 after, and got myself a pretty necklacefor just $9! ;)

Decided to head to Timbré, and M saw this Australian braiding her hair, so she did too!
Helped the Aussie translate mandarin cuz the people there were from china.
She's so friendly and turns out she's a singer back in Australia, and she's currently studying in Lasalle! How cool is that.

Awesome hair!

Timbré @ Old School
It was really ulu and had to walked a long way to reach it, but it was awesome! Queued for quite awhile, but it was worth it.

Had great chicken wings, french fries, thin crust buffalo chicken pizza, & martinis!

My apple martini. (REALLY REALLY GOOD.)

Sex on the beaches. (NEVER HAVE SEX ON THE BEACH. DILUTED AND GROSS.)

Trying to finish the gross drink.

Anyway F got really seh after drinking her Singapore Sling on an empty stomach, so we kinda got worried and amused cuz it's the first time we see her so seh.
Hahaha, but everyone got home safely so all was well! Managed to catch the last train and last bus.

Stayed another night at M's place with J and then headed home the next day.

I love spending time with the girls.
Can't wait for shisha with M on wednesday, and zoo with the rest on thursday!
Can't wait!!! Love y'all! x

P.S. The time now is 5am, look how long i took to complete this post.

Hmmmmm

2011-08-25T02:58:00.001+08:00

I wanted to blog about something that struck me today, but i forgot what.
Owell, shall turn in now.

YAY SLEEPOVERS!!! <3

Oh, change of blogskin soon. :)

11 more fucking days

2011-08-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

Feel so damn stressed out.
But still, go me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Say hello to goodbye

2011-08-01T21:04:00.007+08:00

So it's a new hair color for August 2011! :)

Say hello to my black hair and goodbye to my brown-anyhow-rojak-with-black hair!
Kinda lovin' the black. I somehow miss it. :)

Anywayyyys, exams are in 11days time, and i've not start on anything yet.
Surprisingly i feel somewhat relaxed. Idk where has my sense of urgency gone to. :\
However i'm gonna mug tmr after school, there's no time to waste.

GO ME, AND GO YOU, GO EVERYBODYYYY!

Fuck these songs

2011-07-29T19:04:00.002+08:00

Do you have those moments where you feel so fine, so okay, that you can get through this life on your own? But just one song, just one memory, can tug & pull at your heartstrings and everything comes pouring out, just like that.

My heart feels so heavy now, i feel like curling into a ball and just cry to sleep.

I hate these nostalgic moments.

43 Day Challenge

2011-07-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

Realisation

2011-07-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

“When someone you love abandons you, it doesn’t hurt just because they’ve
changed, or lied, or went back on their promises, but because you know what they
really are and what a beautiful person they can be. And when they take that away
from you and won’t let you see that beautiful person again, well nothing hurts
more than having someone just decide to take your entire world away without
consulting you first.”

— (via raindropsonredroses)

A follower of mine reblogged this from my Tumblr. I forgot i've reblogged this, partly because i've 20k over posts. But seeing this on my dashboard and reading it again just made me sigh sadly. This paragraph over here, sums up how i've been feeling ever since February.

I realised i didn't hurt because you "changed, or lied, or went back on your promises ", but because i know what a special, amazing & beautiful person you can be, and the fact that i can't be by your side to feel & witness your magic anymore hurts more than anything.

I miss you so much.

Please protrude

2011-07-20T00:57:00.001+08:00

Collar bones, hip bones, shoulder blades.

2011-07-19T19:32:00.002+08:00

“A love like that was a serious illness, an illness from which you never
entirely recover.”

— Charles Bukowski

2011-07-19T19:29:00.002+08:00

“We are dying from overthinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by
thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human
mind anyway. It’s a death trap.”

— Anthony Hopkins

2011-07-19T19:23:00.001+08:00

“There are moments in our lives where we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid,
confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define
the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us choose
to turn around and go back. But once in a while, people push on to something
better, something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond
the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or give someone a second
chance, something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream, because it’s only
when you’re tested that you discover who you are tested that you discover who
you are, that you discover who you can be. The person you can be does exist,
beyond the hard work, faith, belief and beyond the heartache, and fear of what
lies ahead.”

— One Tree Hill

Drained

2011-07-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

School is really stressful currently.

3 projects in 2 weeks, and i've started on none. Yes i've said this again and again, but i can't get myself to sit the fuck down and start doing my part. 2 of the projects are to be handed in this coming friday, and i'm kinda lost. Idk what are the objectives of the projects and what does it require us to do. Argh.

& to make things worse, i've wasted today doing nothing related to schoolwork.
I went for a swim in the morning, ate lunch, and came back home at around 2:30pm and played PS3 until 10. Idk what's wrong with me, but i guess i just need to get my mind off things.

Time to set my priorities straight.

Anywayyyy, on a brighter note, i've lost a total of 9kg to date!!!
Fuck yeah proud of myself. I'm gonna continue losing those damn fats with the help of 'My Fitness Pal' HAHAHAHAHA. It's an iPhone app btw. It motivates me!

Okay, time to try to figure out how to do MICE. :(

Byeee.

Life sucks, go sleep

2011-07-12T22:59:00.002+08:00

That's exactly what i'm gonna do now.
School drains 90% of my energy every single day, and i'm so motherfucking tired.
Can you believe i actually dozed off at 10:15 just now?
Argh. Hate waking up early.

/end of rambling
G'night.

Hello once again.

2011-07-04T22:21:00.003+08:00

Just downloaded some of my favourite songs from the past!!!

OMG I LOVE THOSE SONGSSSS, THEY ARE STILL THE BEST COMPARED TO THE SONGS NOW. No song can ever be compared to my past favourites. They carry so much memories in them, both good and bad.

And i changed my Tumblr background, fonts and font colors. :)
I kinda like it. Hehe.

School life is mundane as usual.

What's new?

I fall too fast, crash too hard, forgive too easy, and care too much.

2011-07-02T21:47:00.001+08:00

July, please be good and love me.

2011-06-29T02:43:00.001+08:00

“So, you’ll come across so many people in your life. Ones you think will stay in your life, stay with you forever. You come across people you will love, very much. But sometimes love isn’t enough to tackle all the obstacles in life and you will have to deal with the heartbreak of knowing that that person you love is gone and you’re left, alone, to try your very hardest to fall out of love. To do something you never thought you’d have to do. Just keep your head held high. Don’t let it get to you, don’t fall apart. Clear your heart and let it go. And when it comes around again, let love in. Because you never know. It’s all about having faith.”

— (via eletheowl)

New skin

2011-06-29T01:18:00.005+08:00

Hello, here's a new look for my depressing site.
The only thing missing is the date & time of every post.
I don't know how to put it up. I'm a mediocre blogger. :\

Owell.
I kinda love it though. Do you? :)

P.S. PLEASE TAG ME <<<< Under Messages!

2011-06-27T23:24:00.002+08:00

“It’s funny how hello is always accompied with goodbye. It’s funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It’s funny how forever never seems to really last. It’s funny how much you’d lose if you forgot about your past. It’s funny how friends can leave you when you’re down. It’s funny how when you need someone, they’re never around. It’s funny how people change and think they’re so much better. It’s funny how many lies can be packed in one ‘love letter’. It’s funny how people can forgive, even though they can’t forget. It’s funny how one night can contain so much regret. It’s funny how ironic life turns out to be. But, the funniest part of all is that none of this really seems funny to me.”

— (via theflightout)

Hi

2011-06-27T19:55:00.003+08:00

Haven't been posting here as regularly as before.

I guess this is a good thing as this blog is for me to blog my sadness and thoughts away, & this means no posts = happy me... Right?

For now i still don't know whether i'm truly happy or not. Sure, i laugh and smile with my friends because they make me happy, but somehow i wasn't as happy as i was before. It feels like something is missing, and there's a part of me feeling empty and hollow. I guess this is the huge gap you left me.

It has been 4 months and it still feels like it was just yesterday you left.

I need to learn how to live without you.
I need to find myself again.

What exactly am i wishing for?

2011-05-27T00:21:00.005+08:00

Maybe, i'm wishing for you to miss me.
For you to realise you can't do without me.
& then you'll come running back, like you always do.

But this is it.
This is truly the end, isn't it?

You're not gonna come running back anymore.
You're really gone, this time.

2011-05-24T00:23:00.001+08:00

It's funny how you can still make me smile.
What's more is that you don't even know you do.

2011-05-18T19:46:00.000+08:00

If this was asked a few months ago, i’d say yes.
But there’s so much more in life, and there’s so much more in store for me.
I won’t let my world evolve around you anymore.

So, no.

I dreamt of you, again.

2011-05-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

Lying on my bed now, trying to recall what happened in my dream. I don’t want to forget. I want to remember. I want to remember everything, even if it is not real. You, in my dreams, makes everything real.

I don’t want to forget.

Losing my mind

2011-05-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

Every night, before i sleep, i play scenes in my head, wishing for them to come true.

I fantasize about what is it like to bump into you in the streets. What will my reaction be, what will i say? Will i run away? Will i break down? Maybe i’ll run and hug you so tightly, and just walk away. Maybe i’ll scream and shout at you for breaking me so easily, and for forgetting me in a heartbeat. I honestly don’t know.

I keep thinking about what i could have done to make everything okay again. What i could have said to make you stay, to make you love me again. I play these perfectly scripted scenes in my head; what will you say, what will i say. Sometimes they end perfectly, but other times they’re tragic. Either way, i still cry myself to sleep.

I know you will never want to come back for me, but i still hold on dearly, in the hope that one day you’ll miss me, as much as i miss you.

And when you do, i’ll be here, waiting for you.

500th post, 1st of May 2011

2011-05-01T02:20:00.006+08:00

Time fucking flies. Before you know it, it's already May.

In 2 more weeks, it'll be 3 months without you. I still don't know what i'm feeling. But i know that i've been eating better and sleeping better. I don't even cry that much anymore, besides a few breakdowns here and there. But i'm fine, and i'll be fine.

I've been thinking a lot ever since you left, and i found myself cherishing the people i love more than ever. I started spending more time with gramma, helping her cook dinner. Spending time with mummy, talked more and went out more often, and being a better daughter. I even found the courage to hug and kiss daddy, and you know how hard it is for me, if you're still here.

I used to say i loved you more than myself, and as much as my family. But i've realised that family is the most important, and they will be there when no one else will. Even though i know that you loved me, that we felt so fucking right, and though you meant all the beautiful things said, you still left me in the end. You gave up on us, on me. That's when i realised how stupid i've been. I've been putting you before my family before, but that's not going to happen again. There's no one you can count on as much as your family, and they are the ones who'll never give up on you, and will never stop loving you no matter what you've done. & from now on, i'll put them in first place.

I still miss you so much, and there's tears forming in my eyes as i type this. Though i really hate you for leaving without a word, without warning, i still love you so much. You still own my heart, and you will, for a very long time. You'll always have this special place in my heart, no matter what. You are my first love, and please know that every moment we spent together is true, and that i once made you laugh, smile, cry, and i made you feel fustrated, annoyed, yet blessed, loved, and cared for.

I thank you for making me realise how important family is, and teaching me the hard way to cherish the people i love the most. I hope you've learnt from us too, and that you are happy right now. Always be happy. Smile, because you look adorable when you do. And please know, that you can always run back to me. I'll always be here for you, a year, 5 years, 10 years down the road. I'll be there. & I promise i'll never forget you.

Thank you, my first love.

2011-04-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

I cried like a baby.

2011-04-13T00:40:00.004+08:00

I thought i was getting better. I thought i was getting stronger. I thought i was slowly moving on, away from you, and all the memories we made together. I thought i was happy, again. But i was wrong.

I saw something tonight, and i don't even know if i'm happy or sad to see it. But all i know is that, these walls i've built around my heart, after you left, crumbled & came crashing down. I can feel it. It's like this 'stronger & better' new me had not existed. It's like the new me had disappeared into thin air, in an instant, & that weak & emotional being i used to be, had replaced it.

Or maybe, it has never left.

Because I saw something tonight, and it broke me, once again.

Dearest Daddy

2011-04-10T20:38:00.005+08:00

I just hugged my daddy, and i feel like crying.

I'll admit, it was kinda awkward and a beautiful moment at the same time.
He bought dinner and i just said 'thank you daddy' and the next thing i know i hugged him.
Thank you God for that moment of courage to show my appreciation and love to my dad. (':

I love you daddy.
& even though you don't say it, i know you love me too.

[editted: & Also, just before daddy left for work, i hugged and kissed him. It felt rlly good. (':]

2011-04-10T20:19:00.001+08:00

I like the color of my bolster. :B

You.

2011-04-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

It's kind of fucked up isn't it? How all of a sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words said. They just leave you hanging like you never meant shit to them, and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy.

Cuz I miss you, whenever you're not around

2011-04-06T02:23:00.004+08:00

BEEN YEARS SINCE I'VE HEARD THIS. OH, MEMORIES.

Rebonding of fringe, v shaped, layered

2011-04-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

Hello there.

Crazy people do crazy things

2011-04-04T21:47:00.007+08:00

Friday:

Got a middle finger for being late in meeting M & F for dinner at Ikea :(

Had 10 meatballs, 1 chicken wing & ice lemon tea! Mmm yumyum.

Crazy M kept laughing for no reason, made fun of my mole (bitch!!!), & being ultra bimbotic

F the blur queen was v indecisive, but in the end got her fries.

M needed to be accompanied to the toilet to shit, but in the end didn't.

Played in show rooms and bounced on the beds (LOL)

Hid from F, M attempted to hide in closet but no room for me. :(

F being confused at trying to locate us, damn funny HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Wanted to buy this adorable little toy moose, but ended up stealing it. (it was a rash & stupid decision, but yeah don't judge me, everybody makes mistakes.)

All of us took different buses home, but it was a crazy and funny night. :D

Saturday:

Met J at Dhoby Ghaut, walked around, bought her stuff at Sasa.

M & F came, went to eat KFC!

Talked so much, forgot about time, alr 4pm, went to Carrefour to buy Absolut Vodka, Barcardi Breezer, ice, paper cups, 1 can of sprite (LOL, FAIL, because of F)

Took cab to Marina Barrage, ice 'peed' on uncle's taxi, uncle stared at me.

Weather pms, drizzled and stopped, kept shifting positions from open space > shelter > open space!

Not enough Sprite, M bought coke & 100plus.

M & me drank lots and very 'seh', cannot run straight (LOL)

Cannot walk straight at first, but can after awhile, can even run to toilet & back.

Started giggling at nothing & running ard w/ M, while J & F watched o.o (FREE SHOW ISSIT)

Calmed down, laid on the grass, started being kissy, F got freaked out by kissy-ness (LOL)

HTHT, first loves, boyfriends, crushes, advices, with hugs & kisses and my tears

Kites with LED lights were damn pretty, so many of them! (J thinks they're scary cuz look like UFOs), & the view of MBS & Sg Flyer was so pretty.

M's lap v comfortable to lie on, HEHEHE. Talked somemore, 10:30 alr, went to toilet, wash up, pee, take pictures.

Left to wait for 400, so fucking long, 26mins. Killed a cockroach accidentally while waiting. Watched as gazillion ants carry it back to their nest.

Finally 400 came, but cheena people owned the bus. Annoying aunties shouted at F & my ears, cheena guy hitted on M, who kept laughing like crazy LOL.

Alighted at wrong stop and walked all the way to MRT, trained home!

Had so much fun with these girls!

The most memorable part is when we had a HTHT under all the stars and kites. It was so heart warming, though the strong breeze chilled us to the bone. All of us feel so comfortable with one another, opening up and sharing all our different stories, it felt amazing. & When i cried while talking bout xxx, M wiped my tears away. That little gesture warmed my heart so much, i felt so cared for. (':

I LOVE YOU GIRLS TO BITS!!!!! ♥♥♥♥

Gramma.

2011-03-31T20:52:00.002+08:00

She's reaching 70 years of age, but she's still going on strong and healthy. She's in the pink of health, despite her age, and i'm so proud of her.

She goes to the market early in the morning, buys groceries, and cooks for my family without fail everyday. I've been helping her cook dinner since holidays started, and i feel that i haven't been grateful and thankful enough that she's still in my life, taking the time to cook for me, and prepare my favourite dishes because i'm always so picky. She always tries to compromise, and sometimes i always refuse to eat because i don't like the food, and i always forget to tell her i'm not eating at home, or i tell her i am, but in the end i don't.

I feel guilty and unappreciative, as she took the time and trouble to whip up dishes that i love, and i just push it to the back of my mind and say to myself, "it's ok, i can always eat tmr." But now i realise that life is short, and nothing lasts. What if the day comes, and her time is up? I'll never get to taste her cooking ever again, and i'll regret it for the rest of my life.

So these few days i've been helping her prepare and cook dinner, eat with her while watching tv, because it has been so long since i did that. & it felt good to spend time with her, because school is starting soon and i know i'll be so busy.

But whatever it is, i'm gonna start cherishing gramma, and of course, the people around me that i love.

I love you gramma, always have and always will. ♥

5:02am.

2011-03-31T05:02:00.009+08:00

Still awake, not a tad bit sleepy.

These few days were like a rollercoaster ride for me, there were ups and downs. Ups being me with friends, doing things that i love, helping around the house, spending time with people who i actually know that love me. Downs being thinking of you all the fucking time, thinking of the memories we made with our very hands, your sweet words, brokened promises, how you built me up and tore me down, disappointment, uncertainty, and the list goes on and on. But what kills me are the constant 'what ifs' and the scenarios that keep replaying themselves in my very, very, messed up head. All these would eventually lead to my daily routine of hugging-my-bolster-and-sob-as-softly-as-i-can-and-finally-get-exhausted-and-fall-asleep almost every goddamn night.

I'm so sick of me being like this. I used to be so happy. Now i'm just putting on a mask with a smile plastered on, putting on a show for everyone to see.

They say happiness is in your own hands. That you can't rely on anyone to make you happy, except yourself. It's a choice, believe it or not, that you have to make.

But you know what?
I try so fucking hard everyday, i distract myself, i go out with friends, and other times with myself, & yes, i'm happy when i'm doing things i like, with them or myself, & when i'm distracted. But it doesn't work. I thought i'm getting better, moving on, but actually i'm just like a jet that has low fuel. It flies high into the sky in the beginning, but after that fuel is gone, it plunges down, hard.

& i crash and burn, every. single. night.

Tired & Drained

2011-03-26T02:25:00.003+08:00

They're haunting me. Every single day.

It's always you. Your smile, your laughter, everything. The places we used to go, the things we used to do. Funny, sweet, happy moments. Even the not-so-happy ones, with fights, quarrels.

Everywhere i go, they haunt me.
When will they stop?
Please, just stop.

I hope you see this.

2011-03-25T01:35:00.004+08:00

I hope you feel good about yourself.
I hope when we were tgt i chased the insecurities away.
Now i’m not there, but please, don’t ever think you’re less than fucking perfect.
Because you’ll always be, to me.

To you

2011-03-21T03:08:00.004+08:00

Maybe you won't ever see this... but i'm hoping, with all of my heart that you will chance upon this site again.

Hang in there, okay? You always procrastinate and get stressed out at the last minute trying to cram everything into your head. That's just you. But rmb to start early next time, and don't ever give up on yourself. You are smart, you're just a lazybum. Right now, do your best and please, don't be disheartened alright? You can do it. I know you can. Don't ever give up on yourself, because i've never gave up on you.

Sleep early, please.

I love you.

2011-03-19T04:45:00.001+08:00

I can live without you, i just don't want to.

Dreams

2011-03-18T17:46:00.004+08:00

I dreamt about you just now.

You were lying on my bed waiting for me, and i didn't know. I walked into my room obliviously, and was so shocked to see you lying there. But being the calm me, my face didn't show how surprised i was, and i ignored you, & sat at the end of the bed. That's when you started apologising, but i still pretended i didn't hear you. Instead you came close to me, and stared at me earnestly and said you're sorry again, but i pulled out my drawer to take my clothes (i was guessing i was gonna go bathe), and it hit you squarely on your forehead.

& that's when i woke up.

It felt good hearing your voice, even though it's in my dream.
I missed everything about you so much, and i tried to fall asleep again to let the dream continue.
But despite shutting my eyes tightly and trying to fall back into slumber, i just couldn't sleep again.
I burst out crying.

I miss you so goddamn much, do you know that?

Crying.

2011-03-10T01:44:00.003+08:00

I'm crying again, alone in my room, on my bed.

I just realised i don't pick up my phone to text/call my friends and to talk to them whenever i feel really messed up. I know they are there for me, they said to text/call whenever i need them, but i just don't do that. I guess i'm so used to dealing with this sadness & hurt all by myself, that i forget about friends & family who care, and i just curl up in my bed, hug my bolster tightly & cry my heart out.

I wish friends would text/call me randomly & ask how am i, how am i feeling, and maybe some words of encouragement and comfort. Now my phone seem so dead, i feel so alone & cut off from the world.

Sigh.
Goodnight.

5:27am

2011-03-08T05:27:00.002+08:00

I ended up taking 855 all the way to Vivo, because that's our first bus ride together, as well as first time going out together. Got me thinking about many things. & i saw a brilliant sunset while in the bus. The sun was so round and so magnificently orange, and it glowed while it decended slowly inbetween the trees. So beautiful, it made me smile a little, & made my day a little better.

Walked around Vivo, and ended up spending $60+, got myself a dark green tank top & gold headband from Topshop, and a dress & gold leaf necklace from F21. Cheered me up a little. & I tried on these black high waisted shorts from Topshop, and i really liked it, but it's $79. & i also tried on the US shorts i've always wanted & seen on Tumblrrrr. But it was $76. Argh, so howwww? Someone go shopping with me and help me decide pleaseeeee.

Anyway, i should sleep earlier. These dark rings are morphing into bags under my eyes.
Good morning to you, goodnight to me.

P.S. Retail therapy helps.

Fuck feeling like this.

2011-03-07T18:01:00.002+08:00

I'm going to take a long bus ride.
Goodbye.

2011-03-06T15:34:00.001+08:00

I'm trying so hard everyday,

while you make it seem so easy to just drop everything like we never happened and just walk away.

Random.

2011-03-05T15:23:00.005+08:00

Finally bought my skinnies from Cotton On.
The back of my knees are acting up again, all itchy.
My eyes are being bitches, so itchy.
I lost another kg, doing nothing.
Going Ikea later with the mother. (MEATBALLS!)
Supper with Dayana tomorrow.
Sleepover with the girls next week.
Need to text Meera, Joanne, Liming, KY, Aga, etcetc to meet up!
I want to go to the airport & ton. Anyone?
Goodbye.

1st March 2011

2011-03-03T23:15:00.017+08:00

The siaolangs met at Vivo @ 2pm to celebrate my birthday! :)
They are sneaky because they met at 1pm to buy my pressies and everything. They were shocked to see me cuz they thought i was gonna be even later (because i told them i'm gonna be late) & they were taking their own sweet time. Lol!

Headed to BK to have lunch first, was so hungry. Then they cute la, panicking cuz never wrap my pressies yet! So Feli & Andrina said wanted to go toilet (to wrap pressies but i didn't know) then at the same time i felt like i wanna pee too. So i tagged along, HAHAHAHA. So poor Andrina was forced to wrap my pressies in the cubicle!
After all the chaos in the ladies, we went KTV!

Sang many songs, became crazy, shouted instead of singing, danced, took many photos, and then finally Kat surprised me with a slice of super squashed cheesecake from Bakerzin + a pink candle. Hehehe. They sang me a birthday song! (the awkward moment where people sing you a birthday song and you don't know what to do) HAHAHA. So i just clapped along. :)

& of course, their pressies: A handmade card with their lovely messages, & 2 tops from F21 i've been eyeing a few days ago! Hehehe so happy, hugged all of them! Awww!

After that we headed up to the rooftop for some photo taking, and played with a flower Mel & Jos plucked. (tsktsk, refer to top)

& then Kat left, so the rest of us went to Pet Safari to look at the doggies there! Awww, they're super cute!!! There was one with a really nice brown coat and pink nose, aww. & a golden retriever (MY FAVVVV and yours too ):)! We saw a really cute ginger kitty too, it's coat was so beautiful.. so.. gingerish. (haha)

Then it was Soup Spoon for dinner, yumyum! Should've ordered the mushroom soup though, creamier and yummier than my beef one. Oh well! Next time. :) Had my squished cheesecake there too, damn delicious! Hehe. But well, it does remind me of you though. Sigh.

Anyway, soon after, Andrina & Jos left, and Mel, Feli and me went to DIVA & F21 to shopshop! Bought a headband @ DIVA, and Mel bought a pair of ribbon clips! So pretty! :) & then @ F21, I bought a top which Mel saw, so pretty! I've got 3 new tops in a day to add to my wardrobe!

So after all that trying of clothes for fun, and taking pictures, we headed home via MRT.

I love you guys! ♥♥♥

Thank you all so much for the surprises and the gifts. Really appreciate them so much!
Of course i appreciate you guys more luh. <: I hope we'll always keep in touch, and stay friends for as long as we can! Can't wait for next week's stayover @ Kat's house + wanton noodles! Hehe, see you guyyyyyys!

First.

2011-03-03T19:47:00.006+08:00

You will never forget your first love.
That's what makes it so special.
You love so hard, so deeply,
& so intensely because you don’t know any different.
It's the best until it is over.
Then you hurt like you've never been hurt before.
Eventually you love again, but you love differently.
You will love more carefully, more cautiously.
Just know that there is so much more love waiting for you,
but there will always only be one first.

What if i never get over you?

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

2011-03-01T02:00:00.003+08:00

I love my blog song at the moment. It's so beautiful, the first time i heard it, my heart stopped for abit. If only i could sing like that, haha. Amazing. I love singing, but my throat is being a bitch now. Still hurting like a slut, with it's best friend called phelgm in my throat. Argh. Shall bid singing goodbye for awhile.

So my day was spent in my bed, watching Vampire Diaries. Lol, it's pathetic to spend an 18th birthday like this, if you ask me. But hey, after all it's just a day, out of the 365 days. Nothing special actually. (okay, some self comforting.) PLUS, i had tidbits with me okay, haha. On a happier note, i've gotten $250 dollars for my birthday angpows. Hehe. Time for some serious shopping. Shall do a list soon. :) & mommy got my fav chocolate truffle cake, and even Benny who doesn't even like cake ate 2 servings! Yumyum. & gramma fried my fav seaweed chicken, and asam fish. :) It's all the little things they do. I love them so much.

Oh well.. at least my birthday was with my family, and with the siaolangs tmr. I love them so much, they're the ones who truly care, and love me. Shall turn in soon, waking up early tmr in case i can't find something to wear. I'm very fickle minded.

Night, everyone.

Happy Birthday, to me.

2011-02-28T15:20:00.002+08:00

Here are some things i'm gonna do:

Hit the club with some friends, just for the experience.
Shisha with people who don't mind trying just once w/ me.
Drink the night away at some bar, trying all sorts of shots & liquor.

Well these are some that i can think of, for now.

As expected, nothing from you, again.
I should stop all these emotional shit.
Argh.

It has been so long.

2011-02-27T22:47:00.007+08:00

So here i am, back here again. It's been awhile now, and so much has been happening, i don't know where to start. 2011 has not been a good year, but i'm trying my best to see the good in everything, and to cherish everything before it's taken away from me. I've tried to be happy, i really did.

It'll be my 18th birthday in approximately an hour & ten minutes, and i'll be legal to do so many stuff. But i don't feel excited much less happy at all, not one bit. I dread the moment the clock strikes 12, because i know everything i've built my faith upon will come crashing down, all at once. I know there will be no 'happy birthday' text from you, though i've been wishing ever since that day that you'll text me at 12am of the 28th, to tell me this was all a prank, a joke, and that you love me, that you still care. But i know i'm lying to myself, i'm living in denial.

I just can't let go of this. I just can't. I can't walk away like you did, like we're complete strangers. Just a month ago, we were okay, we were fine, we were happy. Just 4 weeks ago, we were us. Now, there's only you, and me.

After all we've been through.. can't you tell me what went wrong?
Can't you even say goodbye?

I know this sounds silly and foolish.. but i'll still wait for you.
No matter how long it takes.

And.. I hope you've been eating your meals, having enough rest and sleep, and i hope everything is okay at home, at school, and with friends. I hope you're okay, and if there is anything, be it tomorrow, a week later, or a year later, or even longer, you can always come running to me. I'll always be here to welcome you with open arms, to listen and to just hug you. I hope you still know i'll be here for you. Remember? 'No matter what happens'.

I know your exams are coming, or you're in the midst of it, just remember not to give up and that you can do it, okay? Don't be too stressed, and don't study till late too alright? You need your rest. All the best and goodluck, don't ever give up, i know you can do it, prove all of them wrong. Remember I'll always be here, cheering you on.

I hope that after your exams have ended, you'll talk to me.
I'm still holding on to this little gleam of hope.

Maybe you'll never see this. But i hope you do.

I've loved you, truly & deeply, with all of my heart.
& I still do.

2010-08-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

INFP - "Questor". High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population.

Free Jung Word Choice Test (similar to MBTI)
personality tests by similarminds.com

2010-06-29T23:37:00.001+08:00

HTTP://HEAVENFORBIDS.TUMBLR.COM

TO A SPECIAL SOMEONE

2010-06-23T01:47:00.004+08:00

I love the way you smile,
I love your cute(but sometimes dirty) smiley,
I love your pearly whites(im jealous!),
I love the sound of your super cute laughter,
I love the sound of your unique voice,
I love it when you whisper in my ear,
I love your soft cheeks(so pinchableee!!),
I love the way you smile while (& after) I pinch your cheeks,
I love the way my nose brushes against your cheek,
I love the way my lips brushes against your cheek,
I love your messy(but nice smelling) hair,
I love it when you let me ruffle your hair,
I love it when you let me sayang your head,
I love it when you randomly put your arm around me,
I love how your arm always finds its way to my waist,
I love how nice you always smell,
I love that special smell you always have,
I love it when you hold me close,
I love it when you let me lie on your shoulders,
I love it when you let me lean against you,
I love how you cuddle me,
I love how you snuggle w/ me,
I love how considerate you are(you asked to sit @ the other side so I could sit w/ you @ Chapter 2, and how you asked me to take escalator & not the stairs cuz you thought I would zhaogeng),
I love how polite(always saying thank you & sorry), nice & friendly(telling people to have a nice day) you are,
I love how you rant everything and anything to me,
I love the sad(but supaaa adorable!) face you always make after talking bout ): thangs,
I love how you ‘tsk’ me @ Chapter 2 when I kept peeking @ you w/ your hair all wet & ready for a cut,
I love how sneaky(when you drew the heart on my ticket w/o me knowing & putting it in my wallet!!) you are,
I love how caring you are(asking me if I rly wasn’t hungry like 9734623743268 times),
I love how naughty(always teasing me!!) you are,
(okay wait maybe I don’t love that ^ one! Bleah!)

But most importantly,
I love the way you are. <:

(Oh the heart doesn't show here like on http://heavenforbids.tumblr.com so... ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥) v^^v

Itchy hands.

2010-06-18T01:19:00.004+08:00

Hello arsessss! Im just back here to rant. 8)

So term break is already half gone, shitzo. ): 4 different projects we gotta rush, and 1 individual proj we gotta do. Argh, what kinda 'break' is this?! It's more like proj week or smth, darn madness. Been in poly for only like, what, 2 months?! This is madness. OHHHH, and not forgetting we're getting our results when school reopens. Whoa, one thing to look forward to aye? NOOOOOOT. -.- That is seriously fucked.

Anyways, hope next week I would be able to catch up with the people I miss. Especially you. But i doubt you'll have time for me anyways. You're always with your friends. Sigh. (and you claimed you missed me.) Alrighto, no emo shitzo here, I promise.

Hmm, ona lighter noteeee. I've been on Tumblr since like the day i created one. All the peekchures are just too pretty!!! ): Can't stop won't stop reblogging prettaye peekchures!! :) Lookie the one above, yes the wingz shoes. SO CHIO, i wanna get a pair. Damn, too cute to resist. But we all know the price tag is 'chioer', haha. ):

Alrighto, shall stop here. Hands just itchy to blog, hehe.
Kthxbai. (being kaobei here LOL)

Town w/ Lindi

2010-06-16T23:07:00.004+08:00

I know my hair is fucking flat. ):

Vivo, Somerset's 313, Orchard, Sembawang, Yishun, home sweet home. <:

HELLO.

2010-06-15T18:53:00.001+08:00

VISIT MY TUMBLR:

http://heavenforbids.tumblr.com

Clickit. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSCELINNNNN~

2010-06-15T01:17:00.006+08:00

HAPPY

17th

BIRTHDAY,

NEHNEH!

Hope you have a wonderful time with friends on this very special day!

Also, may all your wishes come true!

NO MORE TALKING BEHIND MY BACK!!!

(Cuz I'm sooooo sweet!!!)

ESP. WITH THAT EVIL WOMAN KATHLEEN QUEK ZHI WEI, TSK!

>:(

HAHAHA.

Okay shall end here, byebyeeeee! :)

NEW HAIRSTYLE :D

2010-06-13T16:05:00.004+08:00

Hello peepoh of zee Earth and life from outerspace! (:

Im back to update about my new haircut/hairstyle! Overall it was kinda nice, just that the hairdresser cut my hair kinda short!!! ): *heartpain* I wanted to keep long, but oh well.

I asked for V shaped so yeah, my bad. She also layered it, but not enough to increase the volume of my hair. SUPER DUPER FLAT RIGHT NOW. D: It's okay, hair can growwww, and it won't be that flat anymore in a few weeks! :D

Okayokay shall go now!

Im watching a stupid show on channel 8.

Ridiculous but cute, got Jackie Chan! LOL.

Kay byeeeee! Sayoooooonaraaaa! <:

CURLY WURLY TWIRLY

2010-06-11T00:30:00.003+08:00

SUPERWOMAN IS BACK TO POST!

Since that JOSCELIN TEO keep asking me to update, i shall! This will be a post full of my face lah! Warn you first eh. Later you suddenly chua tio then get nightmares ah. :DDDD

Anyway this post will be about my beloved bangs. I had nice, straight, just-the-right-length bangs afew months ago. Before all my curly wurly twirly hair grew out and conquered my straight bangzzzz. D: Lets see the difference below aye!

A few months before, w/ straight bangs!:

WAH CAN SEE EYES SIA. WHAT A RARE SIGHT.

OMG GROWING LONGER. COVER HALF OF THE EYES.

GROW TIL COVER EVERYTHING. BUT! STILL QUITE STRAIGHT.

See now, the mofo hair grow out. Make my fringe like tsunami please. Got the wave ~~~ somemore! And fringe curling upwards to the left to the left! -.-

Wtf right?! See my hair now, like fucking screwed lah!!! >:(

Macam like one mad bitch like that. -.-

ON A BRIGHTER NOTE, IMMA REBOND + CUT FRINGE TOMO!

YAY SO EGGCITING! :D

OKAY LA SHALL STOP MY MADNESS HERE. <:

BYE!

P.S. Hey sillymelon! Faster get well soon. ): You're now sleeping soundly and resting! Hope you're all warm and snuggled under your blankie. (: Make sure you drink plenty of waterrrr and NO OILY FOOD HOR. Or i slap you in the lift ah!!! Heh heh heh! And see a doc, ASAP. >:( Don't be a lazy/stubborn ass. Get your med and eat em!!! Okay, thats all. Sweetest dreams, sleep tight. ♥<:

END OF ICA1(s)!!!

2010-06-08T23:11:00.004+08:00

Nowadays I kinda look like this. <:

Hello everybodehhhhhh! Thanks for bearing with my inconsistent updating. (:

Anyway please tag my blog when you come to read! Such as AGATHA KOH and JOANNE GONG and other people too.

So today we've gone through our last 2 tests!!! WOOHOO! POA early in the morning kinda woke me up from my slumber. I was so damn sleepy cuz SOMEBODEH scared to stay up alone and I had to text her to accompany her. But in the end i fell asleep anyway. HAHAHA.

Ohohohhhh, then it was Access test @ 1pm! I was kinda lucky to get the white script instead of the green one, cuz i heard the white one was easier. <: So thank you Lady Luck!

Surprisingly, I could do a little more than half of the questions!!! I was thinking I would stare blankly at the paper for 70mins. Hahaha. SO PLEASE, JUST LET ME PASS! 50% AND I'LL DIE HAPPY. (:

Okay here's a short update!

Update more when i meet my girls!!! (:

Sayonara!

New blogskin, new songs, but same old me. <:

2010-06-05T12:19:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone.

Access Q&A was screwed. ): I studied but the questions teacher asked was like a chim form of simple things. -.- Aiya screw it eh. Still got Access ICA this tuesday, my God.

Anyway, my Stats ICA is fucked. I drew my ogive wrongly and the mean, i totally blanked out. I just can't recall how to do, but i know i know how to do! But i just dont know the formula. ):

Aiya Im so screwed. The only thing im confident about is my Eff Comm. And thats it. D:

This peekchure here, is the work of Kathleen Quek Zhi Wei.

Totally discribes my mood.

Btw Im at Starbucks SSC right now, waiting for the super late Agatha Koh and Wong the Yarn. K byeee!

Like my lil monsta?

2010-05-31T22:53:00.004+08:00

Hello, im back to post some random stuffz up, cuz my blog is kinda dying, and no one is really reading it anywayzzzz. Today's MacroEcons was bullcrap. Things i've studied for the notes are totally out of point from the questions they asked in the paper. Like comon man, i studied like for the whole weekend, and this is what happens. BAM! Alien language.

Anyway, went to the library just now to study, and met AgathaKoh the lazy-bum-who-dont-wanna-upload-the-photos for ice cream at Macs, and caught up for abit. :> Then it was byeeee to her and hello to Dee.

Tomo is Q&A for access. Darn, another shitty module. ): But i DID study, i studied til queries. :> Then i can't concentrate anymore, wtf. Argh. Anyway like QQ said, Q&A only 10marks, so it wont really affect overall, no?

OHOHOHOHOHOHOH, btw. Here's a cool convo between me and ma.

MA: How was your macroE today?

Me: SURE FAIL AH.

Ma: Huh! Why?

Me: Aiya the test no link one and almost all also say they will fail!

Ma: Ohhhh, i see, at least you not the only one fail!

Me: O.O LOL.

I love ma ~~sometimes~~. JOKING. ALLLLL the time. <:

Okay lah typed quite a lot here. Shall go and....... stone.

Bye! >:

4E2 '09 BBQ! :D

2010-05-23T19:01:00.010+08:00

SO YTD WAS 4E2 '09 CLASS BBQ!

Tho some people like MEERA A.K.A Lighthouse didnt go, it was still fun, and more people came for this one, compared to the previous one! :D And also, the fire is more FEROCIOUS too. LOL! Ferocious until the food put there awhile cooked already! xD PLUS THE HOTDOG TIO MULTIPLE BLISTERS LOR!

I met Nic OTW to Chong Pang to buy the food and drinks w/ Chwee, Mei Ling, Zi Ying and Jin Min @3pm! Wah we bought like tonz of drinks man! Esp Green Tea! LOL. Spent like a total of 50+bucks on drinks alone! O.O

So after that sat Chwee's daddy's lorry to Sembawang Park! :D

I get to sit in the front, cuz i was scared my contacts will become too dry and drop out, cuz of the wind if i sat at the back. :D

So blablabla, Ziying our heroine started the fire!! While Meiling and I busied ourselves to buttering the corn cobs and potatoes, and wrapping them w/ aluminium. Meiling got cut by the foil first, then after that it was me. Friggin' pain when in contact w/ water. ):

Around 4plus people started to arrive!! All the wat til 8 still got people coming, hahaha. WALAO MR DAVID CHIA NEVER COME. CHEAT OUR FEELINGS. -.-

And yeah, started to chat, drink, eat, hug, take peekchures, etc!!!

Anyway, Jared and Jminz both made a new friend yesterday!!!!

TADAAAAA, ITS TALKING CARL. LOL!

Both of them play like small kids lor.

Anyway, i was one of the last few people to leave.

We left around 11pm i think?

Reached home around 12!

OKAY PEEKCHURES(more on FB):

Nadrah & me! :D

River & me!
Aw i haven't piggyback anyone for super long time alr! :D

Liming Joanne Sheena!

HAHAHA. 'L'! :D
We were doing continuous shots!
I was firsttt! The outcome is below!

L.O.V.E. - smth i dont trust anym.

4E2 '09!

UNITED WE STAND!

P.S. Shall go chiong stupid assignments. ): Bai.

Short Update - School, SIAOLANGS, Friends

2010-05-21T10:53:00.006+08:00

Helloooo, Im baaaaaack.

School has been great, with my SIAOLANGS and friends! :) I love the way we joke about stupid things, how we can be soooooo super random, and how we can laugh at the tiniest little things! :D They make my coming to school everyday worthwhileeeeee. If not i'll be like bored to death man.

HOWEVERRRRRRRRRRR, assignments and projects are piling up. ): Gotta hand in 2 projects next week - 1 on Tues, 1 on Thurs. I haven't even started on my POM ICA. Wtf, im like friggin' screwed already. ): And Access, its another headache for me. Hate it to the core, but the last part was kinda easy lah. :)

Ohohoh, i reallyreallyreally miss my secondary school friends! ):

Hope we can all meetup soon, chillax @ Starbucks, talking, gossiping, bitching, eating LAKSA and Ice Jelly, sleepovers, shopping, taking peekchureeeeeeeees etc.

Miss y'all. D:

Okay lah, just a short update for now. Will be back soon! SOON.

Shall go do the Access thingy right now. Dang ittttt. ):

Bye! ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRANNY! ♥

2010-05-14T14:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 17TH! :)

Hope you'll enjoy yourself on your special special dayyyy!

Sorry I can't join y'all at 18Chefs today, lecture til 6.

May all your wishes come true, and be happy always!

And, ending with DEE's fav line, "ANYTHING MESSAGE!"

SCHOOL!

2010-05-13T22:08:00.007+08:00

HELLO THERE! MISSED ME MUCH? :3

So as usual, school had been awesome with new found friends! Lotsa nonsense and stupid stuffs everyday. Laughter and smiles all the time! Camwhoring and eating lunch while laughing and cracking jokes! :D In fact, today we laughed so much, that during Stats i no energy to laugh anymore sia. LOL! But of course, still got laugh la! With Pokpok and Bimbo! HAHAHA. (:

However, school work is kinda piling, and ICAs are nearing. Kinda scared, cuz some modules i really catch no ball. ): Like Access, MacroE, Marketing. Argh. Just hope i could pass eh? Good luck to me. Sian eh, I still haven't started on my POM ICA. Argh. Feel so sian right now manzxzxz. Oh well.

Anyway enough talkingggg, let peekchas do the work nao! :)

(MORE PEEKCHURES ON FACEBOOK!)

Til next time lovelies. :)

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY, MA (:

2010-05-09T02:18:00.006+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY, MOMMY.

Dear Mummy,

I know Im super rude at times, and I snap at you whenever you naggg (which you always deny, and say that its REMINDING), I really want you to know that I don't mean it, and hope you don't take it to heart, all those words i said to you.

Thank you mummy for always being there for me, especially being there when I cry over r/s, cry over stress during the big Os, when Dad's being a douche, always encouraging me even tho I've always let you down when i get shitty results, and stand up for me when Dad's being unreasonable, getting me my fav food, cooking something nice for me, bringing me out to eat nice food, caring for me, listening to my crap, spending money on me cuz i wanna buy clothes, buy be an iPhone, buy me ANOTHER iPhone when i lost the first one, and so on. Mummy, thank you for being patient with B and I, always giving us chances, and talking to us nicely, unlike Dad who always shout at us.

I got so many things to thank you, but here's a big THANK YOU for bringing me to this world.

Mummy, i know that you are hanging on cuz of B and I. But don't worry, B and I will always be behind you, in whatever decision you make. B and I will protect you from harm, even if it means losing our lifes. I will not let anyone treat you like a punching bag and see you as an easy target to bully.

Mummy, when I grow up, i will treat you well. I will never ever send you to an old folks' home. My home will be your home and we'll live together til the end of our lifes. I will not neglect you, and I'll remember each and every one of your birthdays, and of course, every year's Mothers' day. If you fall sick, i will take care of you, and bring you to the best doctors i can ever find. I will be there for you when you need me, and i will never abandon you. You are the greatest gift God has given me, and the most precious.

Mummy, i still have many things to say. But for now, this is all i can think of.

Lastly, i want you to know i appreciate you, for all the things you've done for me. You've been the greatest mom any daughter could ask for, and you are the best in my eyes. No other can ever replace you, and you will always be in my heart. We are bonded, and your blood runs through my veins. You are a part of me, and Im a part of you. If you're sad, I'd be sad too. So mommy, please be happy each and everyday, and don't hesitate to tell me your troubles. I promise I'll make them go away. :)

MUMMY, I LOVE YOU. ♥♥♥

Sacxyyyy. LOL.

2010-05-08T16:54:00.001+08:00

Get me these, and I'll loveeee ya forever.

So much love.

2010-05-07T14:15:00.005+08:00

Kat, Alson, Luqman, Ain, Aminah, meee!

Kat (evil pokpok), Ain, Me, Gillian!

Me, Alson, Aminah!

Ain, Kat, me!

Kat, Ain, Me, Gil!

(All these are during stats class ytd)
(First pict, my stats group @ Gloria Jeans!)
- More peekchures on FB!

School for me is friggin' fun, with tonz of laughter and joy! :D

THURSDAYS WITH MY LOVELIES ARE ALWAYS AWESOME!

I love Mrs Fung too, she's so cute, and doesn't scold us if we laugh like siao. xD

I love Dr. Badriiii alsooooo, omg.

Cuz of these two people + awesome friends, I start to like stats!

And i understand how to do histograms, tables and everythang! :D

Awwww, Thursday plox plox plox (QUOTED FROM ALSON) come again!

HAHAHAHA.

KK LAOPOK SIGNING OFF.

BYEEEE! ☺

Praying everynight.

2010-05-01T02:44:00.004+08:00

The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

-Vanilla Twilight

SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL AND MEERRRRRA!!! SO MUCH LOVE. ♥♥♥

2010-04-30T19:06:00.009+08:00

Its my classmate's birthday (BING CHUUU) on thursday! And we celebrated it in school!
Zhi Hao and the rest of the boys ordered a super cute cake!
There was so much fun and laughter! (:
I really love my classmates, like seriously! :B

BET YOU NEVER SEEN A BURGER CAKE BEFORE:

OMGOSH SO CUTE RIGHT.

cheese = white choc, lettuce = white choc + green colouring, and the rest was cake!
But the sesame seeds are real!!

PEOPLE.

MORE PEOPLE.

MORE PEOPLEEEE (GIRLZ ONLY)

CLASS HS05, IS THE BOMB! :DDDDDD

*

Anyway, i met Meera for dinner yesterday at AMKHub!!! :D

That stupid bitch was late for one whole hour for goodness sake!

I was carrying my lappy and many books and my arms almost dislocated.

Punished her by making her carry all that. HARHARHAR.

Had dinner @ Mos and yay i love their milk tea!

The milk added to the tea is so damn nice, i took 2 more. Heh. C:

Anyway we chatted and ate at the same time and talked bout many stuff.

After that was camwhore timeeeeee:

HAHAHA LOL I FORCED HER!

MY MIDDLE FINGER V LONG. DONT PLAYPLAY.

LONG FINGER, SUPER SMALL FIST.

LOL WHAT THE FUCK.

OMG IM LAUGHING TO MYSELF!!!! HAHAHAHA!!

MEERA THE PYRAMID!!!

LOL.

FACIAL IN MOS.

RED INDIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CANDID.

"MY TEETH SUPER WHITE SIA."

Here are my favourites and a few funny ones!

Te rest are in my FB. :D

Anyway i had a super good time with herrrr! I miss her loads!

Talked bout many stuffs and laughed truckloads i tell you.

Had heart to heart talk, and yes i feel much better. (:

HOPE WE CAN MEETUP SOON AGAIN MY DEAR BITCH.

Anyway im in the library now waiting for my mummy to have dinner.

So i decided to blog heh. (:

ANYWAY TAG PLEASE. ):

Its okay if you forgotten that i exist.

But please don't say you'll do stuff to make up to me,

and until now i still don't hear from you.

Yes i want so much to be best friends.

But are you treating me like one?

N-O. NO.

I miss you so badly.

Hah kay bye. (':

RANDOM.

2010-04-28T23:05:00.005+08:00

Haha recently downloaded ooVoo cuz Chwee asked me to, LOL.

But its kinda fun and everything as we can see each other and talk.

Since we are all so busy, and we're always in school or home w/ our lappies, ooVoo is a good way to keep in touch!

Anyways how's poly life for me?

Its fucking hectic and stressful, and its like ONLY THE SECOND WEEK.

Everyday we have homeworks, and most of the time we end late.

Tmrw is gonna be 8-5, argh damnit.

Anyway i think imma sleep soon.

Just a short update, cuz my hands are itchy. :)

P.S. I CHANGED MY LAYOUT.

On the verge of giving up waiting.

heartache

2010-04-25T23:05:00.002+08:00

Hey, im sorry.
I just miss you, real bad.

I'll pray again tonight.

Study session w/ KY at starbucks, shop w yt, dinner at FR

2010-04-25T01:36:00.006+08:00

So today was study session from 1plus to 7plus w KY.
Then met YT at F21 and shopped for awhile, then ate @ Food Republic's Toastbox.
Their curry chicken with rice is not bad! :) Yumyum.

After that joked, laughed, then went to New Look before we head home.
Tried on a pair of super nice shoes, and im thinking of getting it, but its $39.90. ):
Anyway we had fun all the way home in the train, Simpsons, TapTap Revenge 3, FML.
Hahaha.

So finally reached home around 11.30. :D

Peekchures:

Its only the first week, and we are already drowning in the homework. -.-

I only managed to complete my Effective Communication homeworks, and Econs.

Still left Statistics, POA, and Access. -.-

Anyw i was watching Peter Chao's vids on youtube, so i forgot that im in the middle of a blog post.

So yeah. Its a friggin 4.08am right now, feeling soooo damn tired.

Byebye dearies, update sooon.

I miss you, badly.

disappointed, hurt, tired, stressed

2010-04-24T00:04:00.003+08:00

You are a downright fucker.
Argh all lies, all excuses.

Outing w/ GONG and LM

2010-04-22T19:53:00.003+08:00

Here's the long awaited proper post after quite some time. :)
I got not mood to blog, and you can somehow guess why alr from my previous post.
Haha. Oh yeah, im gonna post about 20th Apr then 18 Apr.
I uploaded the photos in the wrong order, heh.

20th April 2010!

Meet Chwee, KY, Amirul, KL, Agatha and of courseee, DAYANA our star of the day!
YT came later haha.

Met at Swensons to celebrate Dee's bday!!!
I had the Salmon spagetti thingy, and it was tasty despite the sauce being super watery.
Then shared fries with Agathaaa!

After eating went to draw money with Dee, and after that went to the toilet:

Then chwee called me, and my iphone just died. ):

Anyway hurried back cuz the ice cream cake was melting!

Yumyum damn nice, strawberry, blueberry and vanilla if im not wrong!! :B

Took group photos and left! Hope to meetup more often!!

After that met mummy at Sembawang to try to fix my phone. -.-

In the end the person say cannot and must go service centre.

I almost cried lor wtf! ): Me + no iphone = drop dead. :>

So the next day mummy helped me, and the guy resetted the iphone.

And everything was fineeeee! :D It was some software glitch he said.

Yaaay.

18th Apr 2010

Before going out:

After getting ready met Gong and LM at Yishun MRT.

Walao i thought i late lor, in the end both late!! SIGH.

Trained down to ION, then 313, Far East!

THen it was byebye to liming and then Bugis w/ Gong!

Shop til no moolahs alr sian. :/

Then Joanne also treated me my first ever YAMI YOGHURT!

I had Honeydew flavour while she had raspberry.

Its so damn good!!! OM NOMNOM.

Peekchureeeees!:

K im lazy again, so byeee!!!

P.S: MY CLASSMATES ARE DAMN FUN TO BE WITH!!! :>

tired max.

2010-04-21T23:42:00.001+08:00

sorry for previous post, very stupid i know.
will quit being pathetic.
fuck myself really.

will blog soon, im too tired today.
gonna pack my bag for tmrw and hit the sack.
goodbyeee.

Alone.

2010-04-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

What's happening?

Everything just changed in a blink of an eye.
Everything was okay, then suddenly, CRASH AND BURN.

Tell me, give me a reason, I've got the right to know.
Don't blow hot and cold to me anymore.

I can't take anymore shit.
Been crying, unable to sleep.

Talk to me will you?
You said you'll text me.
It's day number 4 already.
Been waiting and waiting and waiting...

Texted you just now.
It's been 2 hours, why ain't you replying?
Don't ignore me please.

I really miss you.

BEEEZAYE AR BEEEEZAYEEEE!!!

2010-04-17T01:45:00.009+08:00

Aw, how sweet.

Hello thereeee! Back here to post!!!

Beware, it's gonna be a wordy one okey! :>

15 April 2010

Woke up kinda early, at 6.30!!!

But slept kinda late(2plus) cuz i was so nervous and eggcited that i couldn't get to sleep. :/

Met Rain @ Yishun MRT and we trained to school tgt!

When we reached everyone was just stoning outside of the auditorium, LOL!

Met Pavitra(small one) there and her friend, same course but diff class, aw!

Got separated from them as we went to sit at our own classes in the audi.

Made some friends, the left and right of my seat :>

OGLs are Justin and Daniel, friendly guys who are fun to be with.

We then Astroboy LOL, then stoned somemore, then it was starting of orientation!

Had lunch at canteen, chicken wings so difficult to eat lah, pekcek plz!

Then we had games all the wayyyyy, then went to our classroom (prolly).

So small manz, and so little powerpoints, how to use lappy?

Class got 28 poepl if im not wrong, plus minus. :\

Then after that was mass dance, stoning (cuz some indian guy lost his BAG), then > Yishun!

Met Guan Jie and Rain, made our way to MRT, met Shimin! :D

Then reached Yishun, its byebye to them and hello to DAYANA RAHAYUUUU.

Had LJS then it was home. :>

16 April 2010

Skipped orientation cuz its 9-8(OMFG!!!), plus there's water games and cant wear shorts(awnt me wear trackpants ah?!) and my shoes will be friggin wet la, and most of my classmates aint going, heh.

So played truant and met Chwee for lunch and KTV!!! :>

4 hours manz shiokshiok ah. Plus got 1 more glass of free drink heh. (im not cheapo!)

Then it was library > 1 bus loop > cuzzie's house (TO PLAY W HER BUNNIES) > mum + Astons > HOME!

♥♥♥

Tomorrow most prolly movie + makan with SH and YX. :>

Then Sunday will be shopping w my precious bitches, J and LM! :>>>

AND MONDAY START SCHOOOOL, MEETING NEW PEEPS T GO TGT :>>>>>>

Yes thats da way, keep yourself beeeezeh t forget the shit.

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TAG REPLIES!!!!!

NOVELL HAHAHA YES I KNOW DAMN FRIGGIN CUTE RIGHTO!!! THE KOREAN BUNNIES ALSO DAMN CUTE LORRRR!!!!

Guest Lilin HAI NOOOOB! Never backspace the 'Guest' LOL.

hikari HI SIS SO CHIO HOR THE SHOEZ. But idk where to buy also, sad face. >:

yuting I miss you alsoooo!! But school is starting man, we'll all be super beeeezeh. ):

ch HSHAHAHAHAHA YAYAYAYAYA!

el69ine HAHA HIS SONG ONE LESS LONELY GIRL V GAY. But the rest okay, and baby's nice! :x Hehe thanks my dear!!!

i miss mocha. ):

2010-04-13T02:02:00.001+08:00

Hello honey, im your bee!

444th post: Chio-ness

2010-04-11T23:18:00.006+08:00

If chio had a face, it would look like these!

SOMEONE GET ME THE GREY + ORANGE PAIR. D:

twilight vs. harry potter

2010-04-11T03:34:00.001+08:00

Got me cracking up mad early in the morning.

APPT W/ GRAMMA & MOMMY, STEAMBOAT W/ FRIENDS

2010-04-10T02:55:00.005+08:00

CHERRYCHERRYBOMBOMMM.

Today i woke up kinda early (at 12.30) because im gonna accomapany my gramma to SGH (Singapore General Hospital) for her checkup w/ mummy. Gramma haven't been a guai cuz she didnt take her puffs these few days!! Mummy chided her and i joined in, cuz she keep insisting she knows herself and her condition best, blabla. But from now on when im at home, she will HAVE to take the puff, i'll make sure of it!

After SGH, we headed to Far East to get the bag i wanted for quite some time now, and i forgot which floor it was so i went all the way down to the ground floor, when its like actually at the highest floor. -.- Its only 21 bucks and i rmbed last time i asked the salewoman it was 31! So ya, haha. Hope i will use the bag in future for poly so my mom wont keep saying i waste money zzz.

After getting the bag, was byebye to Mommy and Gramma, cuz it was already 6 and the steamboat starts @ 7pm! And both of them wanted to eat the famous wanton noodles too, hahaha. :D

Reached CH's house abit late! But heng steamboat havent start yet! Plus Joanne came late, but she didnt miss much anyway! And she stole my fishball right under my noseeee!! >:(

There were hotdogs, crabmeat, prawns(the most priced item of the night), meatballs, tofu, fish balls, veggies, ya daaa ya daaaaa! We keep standing up and having a WAR over the food, and using chopsticks to steal ppl's food. LOL, like JinMin said, 'WORLD WAR 3' HAHAHA.

After we were all stuffed, there were still TONS AND TONS of food left. So we decided to play some game involving cards, and the loser will have to eat a bowl of gross, soggy, mushy veggies. JinMin was the first to tio, followed by Nich then PH! HAHAHA, all the girls so lucky, non of us had to eat them!

So after that retreated to CH's room and played cards with tokens, LOL.

Surfed the net, talked nonsense, a little bit of DJMax, and camwhoring!

Joanne left first, and the rest of us left at around 1145 i guess!

Group photos:

Joanne wasnt in cuz she left first and we forgot to take photo!

But dont worry, there's always a next timeeee! :D

I ENJOYED TODAY.

MORE PLEASEEEE, I WANT SEOUL GARDEN NEXT!

more killing

2010-04-09T00:51:00.007+08:00

MORE MURDER! :O

Lmao ain't the pictures cute? Just love those innovative and creative stuff these people come out with! Still have more to come, next post i will post a peekchure of strawberries. Just wait and see! Mad adorable!!! :D

Okay, to sum up my day: FREAKING BOOOOOORING. -.- Stayed at home the whole damn day and was bored outta my fking wits, really. If only i got my iphone, i could at least entertain myself and surf the net, tweet, camwhore. BUT NOOOOOOO, its gone. For good. D:

On a brighter noteeee. Mummy called me this morning (afternoon, actually) and she told me good news! She called Starhub and i need to wait til Nov then i can renew my plan and get a new iphone. BUTTTTTTT, the guy said if i changed to smart plan; 300 free outgoing, unlimited incoming, SMS, MMS, dunno how many GB free to surf the net, and the best part is, I CAN GET A NEW IPHONE NOW, YES NOW, FOR ONLY 300+!!!

ISN'T THAT A MIRACLE?!?!?! :D

AND MUMMY PAMPER ME SO MUCH, LOVE HER. ):

FEEL SO GUILTY, ARGH.

Mummy also said the person say can help us ask if can dont top up 100, which means no need pay the extra 100, so i can get it for only 200. MUAHAHAHA. But need wait for 5 days, then the person will get back to us. But even if cannot i will still get it, cuz its like, WTF, 300 only?!?!?!

Heh im getting impatient!! :x

Oh of course i will be paying out of my own pocket, i will bear most of the costs.

Cuz i was the one who lose it, so yeah. -heartpain- D:

Anyway, thats one thing that cheered me up today! :D

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. also, school is starting soon. Idk whether to be eggcited or happy or scared or nrvous or anxious. Its like all these emotions ROJAK-ed together, Cuz i dont know what to expect, and i only know Pavitra and Pern Hong's sis will be in the same course as me. Hahaha. (:

OH YA SPEAKING OF WHICH, I CAN ONLY GET MY LAPPY ON 19 APRIL. SO FUCKING SLOW WTF!!!!!

I think NYP the slowest lor, on that day, when school start, then give us. Never let us have enough time to be familiar with our lappy first. Sianz maximum lah. I really can't wait to get my white Fujitsu lappy! :D Will be chio okay. HAHAHA.

Kay lah imma go naw, update soon.

(like duh i got nothing else to do at home what!!)

Goodnighty people!!!! ♥♥♥

P.S. STEAMBOAT TMRW AT CHWEE'S PLACE, YAY!!!

TAG REPLIES

Hussyzx Hahahaha so chio manz. I wanted to do smth like that, but idk how. ):

elaine HAAHAHA THANKS BABY. Rmb the LG LOTUS? HAHAHA FUCKING GROSS!!

ch Sorry lah!! I typo cannot issit!! HHAHAHA. you* And no i lazy. HEHHEHHEH.

Joanne Thanks my dear. ): EH OYSTER MEESUA SOON LEH!!!

massacre!

2010-04-07T17:02:00.010+08:00

MARSHMELLOW MASSACRE! :O

Okay so hiii. As you can see im updating almost every single day, cuz im really just too bored. I can't go out, i can't contact anyone, and no one can contact me, and many dont even know i've lost my iPhone. ): Sian maximum reallyyyy. So here I am stuck at home with the computer and within four walls.

Hmm i just got a bright idea. I should go do manicure and pedicure downstairs. And then maybe head down to the library and read some books. But damn i got no music, FML seriously. Argh fuckkkkk. Maybe i shall just rot at home luh huh. D:

So i need to wait til friday to have my spare phone cuz currently my brother is using it cuz his Sony Ericsson died on him. Sony sucks la always spoil after 1 year, just after the warranty ends. Lol boo.

Anyway i will only be getting another iPhone in August, cuz thats when my Starhub plan expires and i have to renew it. So yeah, it will be cheaper. And by then, maybe iPhone 4G will be launched. I hope i hope i hope, time flies fasterrrr. -cross fingers- >> X ! ):

Hello im wondering where you are now and whacha doing.

Should i call you? Or should i wait for you to call me?

Hoaw.

Sian maximum.

2010-04-06T15:04:00.009+08:00

SIAN/SAD MAXIMUM OKAY.

Life without my darling = miserable. ):

Woke up today feeling normal, and first thing like every past mornings/mornoons I will see what time izzit, check any msges, or any calls. So i felt everywhere; under my pillow, under myself, under hammie, etc, for my iPhone 3GS and i just remembered i lost it ytd in the fucking cinema. The feeling is so sucky- my slick phone is gone as well as all my contacts, and my msges, and my photos, my apps, MY SONGS and damnit i forgot all the songs i fucking want. Im just gonna die without my songs okay!!! :( FUCKING SHIT LAH.

Im like cut off from the rest of the world.

All my fault laaah. ):

If only i was more careful..

Sigh.

Dad's out to get my replacement SIM card, so my number will still be the same.

Will text all of you guys to tell you i have my phone and im REACHABLE now.

Tho i will be buying some sucky 2nd hand phone, at least i can text/call.

Argh, i can't bear to even think bout it!! ):

Argh, feeling like crap.

Okay see you soon world.

(hope i dont become a cavewoman)

TAG REPLIES.

D Hello my dear. Lol mine even worst la. D:
Dcsy Hey there, thanks for tagging! May i know who are you? :)
Ch Yayaya uou solved the maze, but im lazy to edit so bye. LOL!

And hello Raybanz, i miss you.

on a brighter note.

2010-04-06T01:19:00.003+08:00

Everything was awesome cept for the fact my 6-month-old baby is gone. ):
Anyway its solely my fault cuz its my iphone and my responsibility. D:
Thanks for everything you! Greatly appreciated. Had a super duper time with you!!
More please! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD TTM.

Anyway trained to AMKhub and met Raybans(HAHAHA)
Bought tix to How to train your Dragon and Diary of a Wimpy Kid.
Timings both just nice one after another, with around 30 minutes spare time!

Ate Fish N Co. >> Mussels, prawns, fish, calamari, garlic bread, fries!
YUMZ! Like last time! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
And should have asked for more of the mint sweets hor! D:
Bleah.

Anyways first up was How to train your Dragon!!
Night Fury is like super cute loh!!! GAH.
I rate this 5/5!

Diary of a Wimpy Kid was super nice too!
Cute and everythng, also hilarious!
5/5! :D:D:D:D:D

So Raybans bus-ed home wimme cuz i was :(((((.
Thanks muchie!

So here's my SUPER AWESOME DAY, WITH A NOT-SO-AWESOME ENDING.
D: Tho being sent home is nice. HEE.

I miss you already Raybannnnz :'(

FUCKING SHIT!

2010-04-06T00:11:00.001+08:00

I LOST MY IPHONE. TODAY. AT THE CINEMA.

I. WANT. TO. KILL. MYSELF.

I. WANT. TO. CURL. UP. AND. DIE.

'New' skin.

2010-04-04T20:18:00.004+08:00

Okay, so finally im back here, posting a super long post. :)

For those who visited my blog recently, you should have noticed that my blogskin is screwed.
So here i am, back with a new blogskin. Not really new, cuz i used this skin before.
But whatev, cuz this is one of my favourites. :)

31 Mar 10

That day was to celebrate Joanne's birthday, belated, haha.
Too bad Chen can't make it, cuz she's got school til like 7 plus. :(
So its just Chwee, J and me.

Chwee got Joanne this interesting little gadget which helps you save money, and it has a very tight security. LOL. Hahaha.
You'll need to get the steel ball to a paricular place and then the lid will spring open.

So here's Joanne playing with it on our train to Vivo:

But she failed after countless times, so did Chwee.

Reached Vivo and went to buy tickets first! Decided to catch Alice in Wonderland. :D
So after that we ate LJS and shopped around to pass time.

Toilet:

Gong not ready.

So after that it was byebye to Cheng and HELLO to Alice.

Overall the movie was great cuz its kinda creepy in a cute way and everything.

Aiya idk how to say but it was nice. :)

So trained back to Yishun and had macs for dinner.

Then it was home sweet home since J need reach home by 8.30.

(boooo.)

3rd April 10

FINALLY MET MEERA THAT BLOODY DOG.

We trained to Vivo again, but decided against the movie cuz Lovely bones was like 6.40.

And Meera had to go home early for dinner.

So we went to eat LJS (YES AGAIN, I KNOW), and went shopping!

For the first time, F21 and Topshop didnt have anything which caught my eye, so shopping @ Vivo = failed.

Since Meera had not been to 313 yet, cuz she had school, i brought her there and shopped again.

First stop was New look and yes we both liked the stuff thereeeeee. Woo.

But we havent went Cotton On and verything yet so we left New Look.

Blablabla shoppped around.

But in the end we both went back to New Look and bought the tops which caught our eye first.

LOL.

Otw home:

Our fav picture! :D

Camwhore:

Hahaha, okay byeeee, til next time lovelies.

OH PLEASE TAG IF YOU VISIT.

MY TAGBOARD'S DEAD.

13 days w/o mocha.

2010-03-25T00:29:00.004+08:00

Hello, i know i've not been blogging for super long.

But you cant blame me for not doing so, cuz my brother always hogs the comp. :/

WAIT TIL I GET A LAPTOP OF MY OWN.

Muahaha, cant wait, srsly. :)

Anyway friday gonna go back to sch w WKY to collect our testimonials!

I hope mine is not super short, and at least a page long lah. :/

Looking forward to lunch at school, and seeing people there.

Oh in the meantime, im super sick, like really sick.

Even CALVIN TAN laughed at me for having so much sickness. -.-

Im down with: Fever, runny/blocked nose, sore throat.

Boooo right.

Okay just a short update yeah.

Seeeya, imma update real soon i promise. :)

xoxo.

Day: 9 w/o my baby. :(

2010-03-21T02:08:00.002+08:00

Scream at the top of your lungs

Day 5; Outing w/ Lindehhh, KTV w/ Princess

2010-03-17T01:06:00.007+08:00

Day: 5 w/o boy.

So today woke up early, 1030! Bathed, changed headed out to meet Lindi darl.

Headed off to Vivo in 855, then ate there, camwhored, and came back in 855.

Sorry went off so early babeeee, next time we go watch movie okie! :3

After that met Dayana the Princess and went KTV from 5-8.

Smuggled Mac's new spicy shaker fries, and Giogio hotdogs.

I feel super fat. :( But they taste so goooood.

Argh, willpower gone.

So yeah after that went walkwalk at @ the Night Market.

Had a Turkish kebab, and it was delishhhhhhhh.

(fuck lor i feel even fatter now)

Sigh.

Then it was 1 loop of 804 homeeee!

...... OH YEAH. We saw many peepoh today! 7 in total for me. :O

Day 1.

2010-03-13T03:17:00.003+08:00

Day: 1 w/o Boy. :(

Hello feel like blogging something before i sleep.

Today i woke up, and being stupid, the first thing i do is sit up and look around my room to see what's boy doing. I forgot he was already gone the day before. ): So realising that, i became down again and felt like crying.

Ignoring my heavy heart, i went out to meet Lindeh @ NP and we litterally 'patrolled' the whole of NP cuz we didnt know where to go. Talked lotsa crap on the way which made me distracted, which was good. Headed to SSC, then her house and after that back to NP to meet Dee.

DEE WAS AN HOUR LATE. That dumb assssss was still sleeping when i called her. Waited, and then she came and we went to ktv for 2 hours. Sang like made bitches and camwhored alot. (me) Hehe. Hope that she quickly upload if not it'll be like last time Agatha's surprise gone MIA, lol.

So after that ate Macs, took a round of 804 and reached home around close to 12. Was dreading to head home. Cuz that would mean coming home to an empty room, filled with Dettol smell instead of the familiar hay scent that used to linger in every corner and inch of my room. :( Once again i was down so i stayed in the living room. Then now my brother's room.

Aiya. :'(

My mum says i give away my feelings too easily. Well i guess she has a point.

But better than acting strong and hard to get right.

Cuz this is me.

Well.. Im gonna call Michael (Pet Lover's Centre person who took Baby away ytd) to ask about Mocha boy. They better not do anything to him or put him to sleep. I'll go there and wreck havoc. YES, I SAID THAT TO HIS FACE. Don't mess with my baby, cuz you gotta deal with his momma.

Baby, i love youuuu. :')

You'll always be in mommy's heart.

There's always this little space for you.

Baby Mocha, mummy rlly loves you ok?

2010-03-12T00:23:00.002+08:00

Watch my tears roll.

So they took Mocha away just now. I was really very sad, im very indecisive.

A part of me wants him to stay. A part of me honestly know that he'll be in better hands.

There was many people just now to send him off.

So i can't let myself cry infront of them.

It'll seem so silly right?

Considering the fact Mocha has only been with me for 11 days,

I already love him and adore him so much.

It has only been 4 hours since he's gone.

But i already miss him so much.

To Mocha:

Hey my lil cute ball of fluff. Although you have only been with me for 11 days, you have brought me endless joy, and you are the reason i smile to myself when im observing you in your lil cage/lazing around my room.

Although you have been with me for a short time, im sure you know Mummy loves you alot, and mummy will miss you very very very much. So don't hate mummy okay? Miss me.

You'll be in good hands and dont be scared.

If mummy knows where you are, i'll come and visit you.

You'll be okay, you'll be healthy again and grow up to be an oldold bunny.

You'll find yourself a prettyprettycutecute girlfriend okie?

:')

Its for the best for both of us.

Mummy is scared that when i start school i'd neglect you.

And mummy's family dont know how to tc of you.

So you'd be in better hands ok?

The people will tc of you, sayang you, and make sure you eat well sleep well and grow well.

I love you bby, and i will miss you always.

♡

:(

2010-03-10T16:06:00.002+08:00

I love youuuu.